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Monday, August 20, 2007

I HATE MYSELF......It IS TRUE WAD EVERYBODY SAYS......StudY SO MUCH!!!!...TILL SO LATE!!!!!....TILL I GET SICK!!!!!......TheRe iS NO USE!!!!!......I'M STILL STUPID.....Results was devastating....WT* is tHis!!!!.....I'M SO F****** STUPID!!!!....I'M NO USE!!!!.....The results...The standard I GET IS THE SAME!!!!.....FORget IT!!!!me ....this IS ME!!!1...I am nt thinking negative towards myself...It is jus wad I'm thinking abt and wad others say too....It is true.....I'm DUMB...so jus face the reality...

Dun try to be a BRANIAC...U are STUPID....I knew it...I have to face the fact.....Frm Now on....ME NJC????.....hack care la..Later My Jon's Cravers Section..I will delete NJC!!!.....Gd bye....Now..Onli left ITE FOR ME.....I know it is a shame for a Hed Prefect to go to ITE...but still..I can make a future there....I know tht i alwaes push the others...my frens..to g Poly...But Now..I myself have to go Poly....

I'm now considered a failure....Teacher said I improved alot...bUt tht dosen't realli help me in my "N" levels...I see ppl with more high marks...And ppl losing to me in Mid-Year getting to win over me in Prelims....wtf is this....If i can onli score in CH...wad is the use!!!....Haix...Now....Realli sad bahh....I dun think i can get 10 points exactly or even 9 points Now with my Prelims....BYE..NJC..U will alwaes be in my Heart...But u will never be on my hands.....I'm sorie.....

The pain tht I ba=ear Now..is sohurtful...See my frens...So happie and in a joyous moments with high results....Has higher advantages to go to Sec 5.....I practice so hard.....for Math.....sTill....tht was the reult i get!!!......nt saying tht i gt No patience or Nt appreciative lah...I am happie for the improvements i made but....It's jus nt THERE!!!!!....ARGH!!!!!...forget it!!!...U guys won't understand how i FEEL!!!1....For Physics...If i onli pass paper 2...I WILL HAVE SCORE HIGHER THAN THT!!!!!!!....haix.....I HATE MYSELF....

No use of studying SO MUCH......NJC blew off jus like tht....MY HEART STILL have the urge to go to NJC....bUt..i dun think i cAN....mY FACE MAKE IT TO "O" Levels???....No.....So much for Power...Fame...Glory......Study??.......NJC......NJC....NJC.....???....Ite???...ITE????..ITE???...ITE???
?.....ITE???.....or is it...POLY??.....POLY?????.....POLY??.......Nvm den....tml later see more results....Stupid results..or Great results???.....Soire to all those who expected high frm me....I'm stupid...I've realise tht....I will try my best still ar...My heart won't let me stop thinking of NJC.....

Sorie if i disapoint u guys.....very soire...Typing out this post make me shed my tears.....I'm sorie......Gd bie....TAG..tc...May all the force be with all of u taking exams soon ans taking ur Prelim Results.....All the Best.. :D.....-The Stupid Jon-

Labels: I'M stupid...Realised....NO MORE NJC